pamumuni muni

Life is so unpredicatble. At one point you're happy and seconds after, you're down and sad. They say it really is up to you and that it depends with how you look at the situation where you currently are into. Maybe that's true but how can you really deal with it? I mean, yeah you can smile amidst moments of unrest and lonliness but that's just it. You smile on the outside while you silently weep in the inside. Last night was a huge beer night. GP and I each had 6 miller lights. Our midnight session lasted for maybe more than 2 hours. Nina, Paolo Santos, MYMP and AEGIS kept the session flowing smoothly! It reminded me much of home (when i say home, Im reffering to the Philippines) We talked about his future and my future; about the decisions we made and about to make and the unknown world that is waiting for us. Then just this morning, his cousin came by with her daughter and we all went to Vallejo and had lunch with GP's family. It was a sunny day and the people warmly welcomed us. It was a nice respite.

In a few days, I will again be on my own. When GP goes back to the philippines, I'll have to be contented with listening to my good cds by myself and drinking beers with nobody else. Im happy that I am with my family and I am closer now to where my mama is although we're still miles away. They are after all the people I'll always choose to be with. I miss papa, ateng and mama terribly. But also, everyone needs a friend where you can share not just a bottle but a story of what you're going through at the moment. Thats what I miss right now. Thats one of the reasons why I am sad.

Life is tough but I am aware of God's blessings. I am not complaining, just mearly speaking from my heart. Unaware as I may be of the future, nonetheless, I know this is the best option.